Propose or break up?

I’m a 30 yr old and am so torn it’s taking a toll on me. My gf and I have been together for almost 6 years, and have travelled around the world together, needless to say we’ve had some beautiful life experiences together. But I’m about 50/50 split on whether to break up or propose. There’s quite a bit to it. Back in college, I cheated on my then gf with my current gf. Since losing my ex, I’ve gone through many years of regret and mourning for the potential we had. I’m finally over it, but I fear the trauma of losing her may be keeping me in a relationship that might not be right for me. I’m a very expressive, politically active person, my gf is quiet, introverted, and I get the feeling she’s held me back in being the extrovert I once was. I also cannot get over the constant urges I have to be with other women, sexually and emotionally. I constantly think about what it would be like to be with a strong, independent, expressive woman, with he own life projects and ambitions. To add to the equation, I can’t stand my gf’s family, and some of her friends, and they don’t like me either. I’m scared that if we marry, I will eventually give in to my desires to cheat, and will break her heart. I need advice from an older man who had to make the choice to marry or split. How do I choose one of two radically different choices? I’m 30, and I don’t want to be regretful 10 yrs down the road…

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