I would say around 5 weeks ago an old friend hit me up telling me that I was cute and that I should be interested in someone who is interested in me. She’s made it very clear that she likes me and that I’m cute (tells me everyday). We’ve hung out around 4 times and they’ve been pretty fun. We kissed and made out and it was awesome because it was my first time doing that with a girl ever. Currently I’m struggling with how I feel about her. She’s talked about how she is willing to do stuff with me because she is a very loving person. We’re not dating because she isn’t ready for the tag of a relationship which I don’t mind to be honest. I don’t want to do stuff with her until I feel the same way mentally. Like shes dry over snap and text and a little on face-time but she’s told me that’s how she just is and her friends have told me the same. My father told me that I should just go day by day and keep hanging out with her and eventually I’ll either feel something or I wont. I’ve also just started nofap because I read that it can help cure my brain on how I see women. I’m probably just overthinking it but I feel a sense of pressure that I have to feel the same way even though shes told me that I can take as long as I need. My social skills aren’t the best so its hard for me to have a meaningful conversation. Also she has acne but like who doesn’t and I feel like that’s my inner old self who thinks he is going to date a model. Enough rambling if you have any questions or any more details that you want me to add please let me know. Any advice will help thanks.
Saturday, December 03, 2022