Okay, so there’s this girl I’ve known for two and a half years now. We’ve known each other since we started high school and have always been ‘friends’. We both live far away from school but close to each other. We’ve been cycling to school and back since we found out that we lived so close. For the first year, she was my main go-to friend simply because we had already gotten to know each other. When making a seating plan for school, all the boys had to sit down on places in the classroom and all the girls had to go sit next a boy. She, she sat down next to me. By this point I had already developed a huge crush on her. We hardly ever texted each other since we saw each other at school and on the way home already. We have by the way never to this day, hung out outside of school. At school she would always be very kind and spontaneous around me. She acted in a way that she’s never acted in with anybody else. She once even let me check on her test because I didn’t know one answer. When the summer break came we lost contact mainly because I was too shy to text her and was scared she’d find me irritating. In second year we both decided to sit next to our ‘same-gender’ friends to avoid constant teasing. Now, one and a half years later, we’re still the same. Nothing has changed. But now I can hardly contain my crush for her anymore. I’ve recently tried texting her but most of her answers have been very short and with very little emotion. I really want to try and ask her out but I’m scared that that might ruin the friendship if she rejects me or that maybe I’m not even considered a friend anymore since we only really interact while cycling home anymore. I honestly have no idea what to do anymore.
Wednesday, October 27, 2021