What do I do if married but still in love with my ex? She was everything to me. I lost a sibling and wasn’t in my right mind started cheating and drinking turning into someone I’m not. She couldn’t forgive me so I moved on an married a month later to someone I barely knew. Now 5 years and a kid later I’m still thinking and dreaming about my ex Wanting to know why she couldn’t just forgive me because everything was so perfect.  I find myself wishing I could go back and do the right thing. My wife sometimes says she thinks I’m in love with somebody else and that she not stupid. I just tell her she don’t know what she talking about