So I have recently recovered from an 8 year bout of amnesia I ran into an ex I wasn’t even aware existed… She actually is a huge stalker and lured me to party out of state and I went not knowing that we’d ever met before. When I got there I had a bat shit crazy experience and memory refresher and the last 9 months I’ve been putting the pieces together and am starting to figure out what really happened… The story goes a little something like this:

So apparently she targeted me in highschool since I’d never had a relationship before and both my parents fucking sucked I was abused and neglected my whole life I was literally alone all the time my mother would go out for weeks on end binge drinking and smoking meth I never knew where she was I was always at home alone it was always that way I didn’t know anything else and my father would only be around to take me out to his farm and molest me during his visitation hours every other weekend I never had a choice and no-one ever believed me about anything I was labeled a liar very early on in life all that made me an easy target. She started stalking me like I seriously saw her everywhere and was young and thought it was like a soulmate type of thing and there was a reason I kept seeing her, but was too scared to ever talk to her cause I never had any kind of healthy relationships what so ever and used to get picked on by girls a lot so I was totally scared of them big time. Shortly after graduation she convinced a guy that I thought was my friend (he was actually just a huge bully and used me the entire time I knew him and his friends in reality) to peer pressure me into dating her by telling me I needed to get laid and that I was a pussy for not talking to her etc etc… I was a virgin at this time 100 percent for sure. We started dating about 8 or 9 years ago; I had no memory of this up until several months back. I never had a girlfriend and my entire life everyone told me I was a loser and would never be good enough for any female and all that so I really wanted to prove myself to her. I gave her everything I possibly could it was never enough… She cheated on me with this other guy the entire time sometimes while I was around even and would lie to my face, but I was determined to make it work. She had other plans in mind…

She got this other guy to dress up as me at a Halloween party and rape a girl there while in costume and convinced everyone I had done it in order to get them to gang rape me out of revenge. I flipped the fuck out… In order to not incriminate myself I am leaving out what happened afterwards…

I had no idea she was involved in anyway…

Shortly after this I was stabbed in the head by this guy’s friends to get back at me.

I ended up in the hospital unconscious and was kidnapped by my own father whom is absolutely insane and molested me as a child he wanted to teach me a lesson I had told him during an argument that I hated him and the only person I needed in my life was this girl… He said he was going leave me with nothing and he was going to make me do it to myself… I didn’t believe him…

During this time I was a walking zombie and was drugged to keep me in this state mentally for almost two years. While in this condition I was raped daily and forced to do all kinds of fucked up shit. This is where things get confusing… He sent me out to kidnap my own ex-girlfriend I snapped out of it just long enough to try to get help. On my way to find help I was stopped by a squad of US Military soldiers in uniform. Wow was I glad to see them. I didn’t know how I’d gotten so lucky I told them what was going on they beat the fuck out of me and told me to I’d better do as I was told. I didn’t know what to do or who to go to. No-one ever believed me about anything and no-one was going to believe this shit besides who is higher up than the military???

Shit went bad fast I lost consciousness again and I can’t even begin to tell you what happened next… So much fucked up shit happened I don’t know how much of it was real or not and I never want to know… I thought I had no choice. Turns out that the Military Commander in charge that beat the fuck out me is in charge of a huge sex trafficking ring and the girl is his prize slave. I had no idea…

She told me all kinds of crazy stories none of them add up… Lots of people have ended up missing I don’t know how many of those I unknowingly played apart in… I woke up one day and everything was normal again. Like it never happened… I was told it was all delusion by mental health professionals and put on all kinds of medications. Until I forgot completely and was convinced none of it ever happened…

8 years later I finally started feeling normal I got taken off the medications and stopped having nightmares and none of the ‘delusions’ were bothering me anymore I thought I was ready to start my life for real and move on. I got invited to a party by a girl online and her ‘husband’ was willing to let me stay at their farm until I got on my feet. Best of all they were in an open relationship he was twice her age and she “needed someone her own age” I was pretty sure I was a virgin still I didn’t ever remember having a girlfriend before and for some reason even though I’d never met this girl it was like she really knew me and I really wanted to meet her and get to know her for some reason. So I went…

It was the same girl…

She told me a 100 different versions of what happened I don’t which ones are true or not or if its all made up or she even knows. Some of them she is a victim too others she is mastermind behind it all… Either way in all of them she is an owned slave by the Military Commander and she wants me as her slave to share with him. They want to remove my testicles and dick then cut my eyes out and use me as a skull-pussy. They are blackmailing me saying if I don’t comply they will use all the things they made me do while I was unconscious against me and I will end up in an even worse position in prison that I don’t have a choice they own me and either I need to come out to their farm or suffer in prison. I narrowly escaped and have been haunted for the last 9 months. Part of me loves this girl and really thinks she is in trouble and needs my help she says she is being held against her will and needs me to rescue her. Part of me thinks it is all made up and they are trying to kidnap me. Part of me thinks my dad somehow made this happen and they are both victims and just don’t know what to do either. Part of me thinks they are the ones that manipulated all this and convinced me it was my own dad somehow. Part of me thinks it is all very real both sides are against me and I’m fucked either way. Both sides are trying to make it look like it was all me and they are not involved in anyway. I don’t really know what happened for sure I keep convincing myself it is all a delusion, but isn’t helping anymore…

I still don’t understand what the fuck really happened or who planned it out. The girl keeps changing her mind or telling me different things sometimes she says she wants me to come murder her husband and rescue her. Sometimes she says she wants me to surrender myself over to them and become her sex slave and that she is going to torture the fuck out of me. Sometimes she tells me that we have children I don’t remember and I need to send her money. Sometimes she tells me I’m insane and should commit myself to a hospital permanently. Sometimes she just tells me I should commit suicide. Sometimes she tells me it will all be ok and I just need to come back up and visit her and ‘the kiddos’. Sometimes she says she is going to run away and she needs somewhere to go. Sometimes she says I’m the one stalking her and I did all this shit myself and am faking the amnesia and everything else. I don’t know what is going on I only know she is the one telling me all these things I’m not making it up, but I can’t go to the police and the whole story makes me sound insane besides either way if I do any of the things she tells me I’m fucked… And I really think she doesn’t know what she wants me to do for real, but she is fucking serious about it. There is probably all kinds of other guys she has done this to also even if I did try to follow through with one of her plans I’m pretty sure she would just have another guy lined up to murder me right afterward… I wanted nothing to do with this chick she forced herself into my life and I didn’t even remember she existed until she lured me into her trap… Now I don’t know how I feel about her and I don’t understand what is happening or what is real or not. How much of it is lies. I’m hoping its all made up…

I tried committing suicide about a month ago and I’m hoping she thinks I’m dead cause I haven’t heard from her since, but I don’t know if she is going to find out I’m still alive and what she is going to do if she does… She has totally fucked up my life and taken everything from me I know she gets off on it and its never enough for her she will come for life insurance or something soon and find out I’m not dead.

What the fuck do I do???