I really don’t know…

This is kinda tough cause I don’t have anyone to talk to about this. (M 26)I’ve been with my partner for 5 years. I’m self diagnosed Autistic and I don’t think that matters here but idk. So my partner(NB 23) has a friend who has just got out of a relationship. I’ve always kinda thought she was pretty but in the way that some people are just generally better looking than others. So my partner is telling me that this girl has been fooling around with this “friend” of hers. From the sounds of things she being taken advantage of while she’s emotionally off kilter. This ends up making me really angry and I realize I’m jealous of this dude. Obviously there have been other people in the past 5 years who are really attractive to me but now it’s like weight in my chest upset about this. Until then I never thought about this girl outside of what my partner told me. But for a couple weeks now she’s just on my mind and I feel really guilty about it. I what I thought was right and tried talking to my partner but they just kept getting more and more angry so I swept it under the rug and played it off like I was just jealous of the attention some of our other male friends were getting. I know this is all rambling but I’m constantly in this anxious panic about it. I don’t want to give up my life with my partner but no matter what I do I can’t get this other girl out of my head. Do I try to broach the subject again. Is the kind thing to do to break up amicably. I feel like I’m doing something wrong here but I do really love my partner but like there’s this stupid part of my brain that wants to sleep with this girl soo badly.

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