When I went on vacation, my younger brother made a friend, who’s my age and lives in NY (3 hrs away). I’ll call him bear. Anyway, on the last night of vacation, my siblings, bear, bear’s cousins and I went to the amusement park and whenever I was around bear, my hands and feet got sweaty, my heart skipped beats, I blushed, and I was nervous. And on the last ride of the night, we went on together, just the two of us and I couldn’t stop smiling. Then two days later, he’s texting my brother and asks him for my number, so my brother gives it to him and we chat for 6 hours. Until, he tells me, “I know I’ve only known you for a few days but I kinda like you“ and that’s when I felt like I couldn’t breathe, I felt like I was special and I for once felt like I was enough. So then I told him that I liked him too but I couldn’t date him because he lives 3 hours away and he’s my brother’s friend and I don’t want to make their relationship akward. So, we text off and on for a week until on the 7th day he texts me, “I feel like I really need to say this sooner rather than later. I want you to know that I had an amazing time in Nee Jersey with you, and you mean so much to me. You know how much I like you, and I know how much you like me. But we can’t be together. I’m so sorry if this crushes your heart, I don’t want it to. But I live in New York and you live in Connecticut. I’m sorry if this is stupid to be done over text, but I don’t know if I’ll ever physically see you again. I don’t want you to hate me, please don’t. I will always care about you, no matter what. I hope that we can remain friends, it would mean everything to me if we do. I’m so sorry to be doing this after all the texts, conversations, and FaceTimes we had. But I needed to get this off my chest before we went too far. The thing is that when I go to my new school, I’m afraid I will meet other people, and I’m sure in the years to come you will too. I don’t want you to feel like your not good enough or something, because believe me, you’re perfect. You’re beautiful, sweet, kind, and funny. I hope you find a boy in the future who treats you like the princess that you are. You deserve someone who spends every minute with you, and unfortunately that person isn’t me. So again, I’m so, so sorry about this. I hope you can forgive me and that we can still be friends.” And I was crushed but I didn’t want to tell him. But I felt okay until the next morning. The next morning I cried and cried and felt like I wasn’t enough. So I called my bff and all I could say to her was, “what did I do?” And she responded with “nothing. You did absolutely nothing wrong, and if he can’t see that you’re as awesome as you are, then he’s not worth your time.” So I figured that was the end of my crush on him. But now, three days later, I still can’t stop thinking about him. What should I do?
Sunday, September 26, 2021