My girlfriend of over three years is moving away (5hr flight) to do an 18 month program and as much as I support her and am happy for her, it’s tearing me up. Long story short we both grew up in the same town and after getting really close over 10 ish months it was time for both of us to move to the “big city” (which is a 2 hour drive plus 2 hour ferry ride away) for University. We knew it was early but decided to move into together for a few reasons, it saved us money, we were “young and in love” and it would be nice having a piece of home with us as it was both of our first time leaving home. Fast forward and we’re still together, still in the same basement we moved into originally and still just as in love with eachother. She recently got accepted into a 18 month dental hygiene program and will be moving cross country in a few weeks, we’ve known for a while she’d be leaving but I was in denial the whole time to really supress my own emotions. I can’t move with her because of my own school and career path and she will be moving back because her whole life and family is here. Although she’s sad and upset too and I’m trying to console her as much as I can I’m barely hanging on myself. The thing for me is that my whole life in the “big city” was with her, we work at the same place, go to the same gym, all the activites, groceries, little things like doing laundry and cleaning, literally we’ve done everything together for 2 plus years and in a few weeks I won’t have any of it. For her, she’ll be in a new place, developing new habits and having a new job and new gym and new activities that never involved me so she’ll be able to do those things just fine. But for me, I’ll be waking up in the same bed, going to the same job and same gym, same everything but none of it will be with her, I know it’s not healthy to be this dependant on someone but I can’t help it, our home and our things will be forever changed, when she comes back we’ll be in a new house/apartment and our place will be forever gone. I’m not ready to close this chapter and it’s killing me that we won’t be closing this chapter together and I’ll be living in “our place” without her and with a different roomate for months to come.
Tuesday, October 04, 2022